I made it through yesterday without breaking down, caving in, and doing anything rash or foolish. I spent the night hooking up my dvd player (again!) and running cable all over the place to get the surround sound set up. I still need to tuck the cables in better and I desperately need some zip ties to clean up the mess behind the TV, but at least I’m not tripping over wires now!

I actually sat down for a little bit last night and watched television. How fucking weird! I haven’t really done that a hell of a lot in the last several months. I have my dvr set to record SG1 and Atlantis, and last night I finally watched the season premier of SG1. I am not a nerd, shut up!

Oh, and I ate cheesecake, which is always good for the soul. Not too much though, goddess only knows how much weight I’m going to gain just because I quit smoking, I’m not tempting fate.

I’m feeling a little better today, but I’d still really rather just say fuck it and light up. I can’t wait for the feeling to pass. My smoking pals at work are all pretty cool about me quitting, no wicked temptation or anything, but I still want to go outside with them 30 times a day and light up. Especially yesterday, what a nightmare!

I can do this, I’ve done it before. This time I will make it past a couple of years and make it permanent!

Update: It’s happening again! The problem at work yesterday that caused me to pull my hair out… AAAAIIIIEEEEE. I need a damn cigarette.

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