What’s new in Wonderland
I know, you are saying to yourself, “Where is she? She never calls, she never writes… surely she must love me more than this!”
Of course I do. But you know, funny things happen when you aren’t looking, life comes around and expects you should pay attention. Between being educated on the finer points of “butt, bootie, and ass” (and if I were sober during the lesson I’m sure I’d remember what the hell that all meant Friday night), getting one hell of a cold moving into my lungs, and the average ordinary life of a mother of teens, I’ve been a little pressed for time.
In addition to the usual fun, there have been some things happening in my world that just piss me off to no end and talking about them isn’t going to make them go away. Signing a big fat check might, and I’m crossing my fingers that when I finally throw that stick, some people will just go the fuck away and never darken my life again. Alas, I’m sure there will be yet another reason to try and spread the disease, but you know, eventually even the truly ignorant amongst us must realize that the rhetoric gets tired. Yeah, yeah, I know, I’m expecting a lot from that corner, but hey, a girl can dream. Hrmmm, slightly related, my VA tax refund just hit the bank. Could the federal one be far behind? One can but hope, as this chapter of my life is begging to be closed.
Completely unrelated to any of that, I’ve been experiencing some deeply personal issues and am in the process of trying to organize my thoughts and feelings. I’m finding myself in a odd place where there is some epiphany; expectations that I’ve had of life that I’m now beginning to question the validity of, some release of certain ideals, and some reinforcement of the things that I know to be ground truth. It’s a troubling time in my head, and the cacophony of thoughts makes blog scribbling somewhat difficult. I am finding, however, a quiet return to one of the cornerstones my faith and spirituality: Three things from which to never be moved, one’s oaths, one’s Gods, and the truth. In questioning my own motivations and goals, and I have realized, once again (Fate, she is a quirky mistress), the path I’m on is one I deliberately put myself on. In order to achieve what I’m seeking, I must let go of everything except that one foundation - the truth.
Sadly, I realize that for most of you, this post will make no sense; to me it makes all the sense in the world. But there you have it, the update on the doings in Wonderland.
I leave you with today’s quote from my desk calendar:
Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?
-Fanny Brice