Surrender
That word, does it cause conflict inside of you?
Do you stare at it and wonder what it is asking of you? Is it asking you to give in? To roll over? To give up and let yourself be lost?
Maybe.
But for me that one word, those few letters, mean the difference between hope and hopelessness. Between sanity and insanity. Between a future of happiness and a past of pain.
Surrender.
Today I did something I wasn’t sure I’d have the courage to do. It was very painful, and it dredged up a lot of memories I’d rather have let fall away. But it was something that I needed to do, felt compelled to do. And once that thing was done, once the shame had passed and the burning of my tears faded away, I surrendered.
I carefully wrapped up all of the bits and pieces of that thing and tied them up in a neat little package. I gave that package to the Universe and let it take over. I have done my part, I have paid my price. What will come now is not up to me, I give it all away.
I surrender.
To the will, the desire, of God, the Universe, the Great Mother… to whatever.
It is no longer my burden to carry.
I am free.